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12 February 2011

Finally, Orientation is OVER. I’m really glad. I don’t enjoy missing lessons, even if I’m excused.

Anyway, we brought GLORY to GODDESS ATHENA. We won War games AND Campfire Performances. LONG LIVE ATHENA! (well she’s immortal anyway so LOL) Ares did not bad also… I was kinda disappointed by Apollo though… Apollo was so freaking awesome last year. Sally still scares me.

Well, kinda messed up fac dance, but doesn’t matter I guess.

And I can rich double ledger High C! Whooo. Practiced damn alot today… but I enjoyed it!

06 February 2011

This week is gonna be a tiring week ahh… I’m dreading it already ): I won’t get to go home early and all the work and all will pile up ahh, somehow I wondered if I was really sane to sign up for this. Yeah I wasn’t it was a rash, last minute decision. Sucks. I’m stupid. I’m really really stupid ): I don’t even know if I’ll have the ability to stay awake during lessons, so I guess I should sleep early today… try to complete some work before H3 tomorrow and Piano class on tues… cause I suspect after band on wednesday, all hell will break loose. and I mean it. argh. So tiring. I hate being tired. I’m just the type who likes to cuddle up in bed and sleep just because I’m bored / tired. Sleeping is good for you. Call me lazy but whatever.

Today was productive. I completed Math, Physics H3 and Chem tutorial. I’m considering doing Physics H2 tutorial tomorrow… if time allows… considering the amount of time taken to travel home, and how late H3 ends… ugh maybe I enjoyed life better as a J1, though there was PW I had more free time. And now with BBI, SL, H3, SYF, FC (BEHOLD ACRONYMS!), it’s like everything is building up and accumulating and I feel like Atlas under the pressure of the sky… like if I just make one false move in time management, in planning, like if atlas’ pinky were to slip, I will get crushed under the pressure, like how atlas will get crushed by the sky. I guess I finally understood how Atlas felt, and why Percy got grey hair.

OK LIKE STOP BOTHERING ME ALREADY.

Sorry I just had the urge to scream at some pest.

I supposed blogging was supposed to be relieving to some extent, but it actually reminded me of all the responsibilities I have, and kinda made it worse. Haii, I shall just pack bag and sleep and forget about everything else.

I hope.

02 February 2011

Alot of things has happened lately I don’t even know where to start.

1. Bryan’s birthday was awesome. Christis whipping cream failed but Greenfields saved me (why am I even surprised)

2. CNY celebration cum Street sale in school today was crazy. FROZEN BANANAS AND MARSHMALLOW BUNNIES HAHAHA. oh god. But we had fun packing the stuff lol. :P

3. iPad extended screen on Air Display app is FORMIDABLE. I ought to do a review on this and send it to some tech site for money or something

4. Sleeping Buddha likes mushrooms

5. Q is all real numbers

Anyway aside from that, I guess I was quite affected with all the negativity and rubbing in. But then again, the hard part is standing up, and I can stand up. So I’ve decided that all I will do is just be calm, emotionless and all, and not let it affect me. Oh and Ken, if you’re reading this, no, I’m not being emo. It’s more like a self actualization thingy. I don’t know why I try so hard since I always fail, ~~and I’m already on the verge of giving up~~, correction: I have given up. Sam’s words of wisdom really helped, so thanks Sam (: She was right about me having no obligation whatsoever, and I guess it’s true. It’s great to have someone who understands you as your closest classmate ;) and she did a really great job with the Marshmallow bunnies so kudos to her. But anyway, it’s like this entirely different side of me takes over whenever I’m in that situation… it’s… so unlike the person who laughs at things like mushrooms… I guess if you’re there to actually observe, it’s quite a drastic change, like from white to black. Suddenly, everything has lost its meaning. It’s like still eccentric, but so differently eccentric. I’m always on a different wavelength, and it’s like I’m not appreciated because of it. Well, the thing is, I’m not going to put on a fake front, OR not be myself, just to you know, fit in… call me ego, but whatever I love myself the way I am. I’m sure of it. I don’t need people to tell me how awesome I am. And the fact that I’m not appreciated by EVERYONE just makes me more special. I feel like I’m ahead, forward looking. Well no one appreciated Ravel much. and Ravel is like the most ingenius and diverse composer I know of. I think the weirdest people always turn out to be really great people, so I’ll live with that.

I’ve always felt like I’m meant to do something great. Ok I know it’s starting to sound a little dramatic and cliche and book-ish. But I don’t know… I don’t think I’m meant to just have a boring job like a doctor or an engineer... anyway I only have a few minutes till CNY so I should get a move on with New year resolutions :P